Have you ever struggled with over eating or under eating? Maybe you've felt alone and ashamed, and don't think you can trust anyone with your secret. Have you ever felt guilty for eating a certain food that you thought should be "off limits" from your plan, and then tried to work it off with extra hours in the gym? Are you someone who, no matter how hard you try, you just aren't satisfied or happy with your body? If you answered yes to any of those questions, I get it. I struggled with all of these things too, and I’m excited to get to know you.
For more years than I'd like to admit, I struggled with my weight and body image. I can't remember a time in my childhood, teen years, high school years, or college years that I actually felt comfortable in my own body. I actually once truly believed that I would never be fit or thin, and that I should just learn to deal with it. My journey is a long and unique one in which I have lost and gained and lost anywhere from 10 to 40 pounds over the last decade. It seemed that no matter what I did, I was never good enough.
Even when I was underweight and malnourished, I still didn't believe I was thin enough or worthy of love. When you begin to diet and lose weight, you have this misconception that when you reach this magical number on the scale you'll finally be happy. But I am living proof that this is NOT the case. Actually, when I was my thinnest and lightest weight, I was actually the most miserable and depressed I had ever been. I became extremely anxious around food and avoided any social situation in which it would be present. I stopped going out with my friends. I skipped out on important family events so that I could work out for hours on end. I was absolutely 100% obsessed and addicted to keeping my weight in check - but at what cost? I was living off of protein shakes and veggies for far too long, and I somehow ended up in a never-ending cycle of restricting my food, to bingeing on food that was seen as "bad" or "unhealthy", and then over-exercising for hours to burn it all off. If this cycle sounds at all familiar to you, I'm here to tell you that it doesn't, and SHOULDN'T, have to be this way.
Fighting against your body to be a certain size or weight is not natural or healthy. Dieting is counter-productive to being your healthiest self. Putting a limit on how much you should eat, what you should eat, when you should eat, and how you should eat is a mind game that turns your body against your brain. Eventually, your body outsmarts you, no matter how strict of a dieter you are, because it wants to keep you alive. Physiology always wins, and our bodies like to have something called homeostasis (they don't like change and really don't like when you put yourself in a caloric deficit). That's why you have those massive cravings and end up bingeing - because your body actually needs that food. Learning this, for me, was like a gift from God. I had finally seen the light. I had answers! I knew what I needed to do (STOP DIETING), but I didn't know how to do it. I was so terrified to let go of the control. I didn't trust myself or my body, and I was scared that I would gain even more weight once I released my grasp. But once I did, magical things started happening. I stopped bingeing. I started feeling my natural hunger and fullness cues, and I allowed myself to listen to them. I was more present with my friends and my family. I began exercising for the love of moving my body instead of punishing myself. Life started to feel good again, and my mood, energy, and happiness rose dramatically. I was free.
The truth is, everything we've been told about "nutrition" and "fitness" and "dieting" is a lie. You do NOT have to restrict your food to lose weight and be healthy. It's actually quite the opposite. The reason we all have struggled with our weight for so long is because we started to diet in the first place. The statistics are actually frightening. Most people who diet end up being heavier than they were when they started, and they have less lean body mass and more body fat, which means a slower metabolism. (Google it, you'll see!) But don't worry!! No matter how long you've been dieting or stressing about your weight and your body, you can reverse it and be your healthiest self! All you have to do is allow your body to guide you.
I know that the struggle you are going through is very real. I know how lonely you feel, and I know how much you've been wanting to feel like yourself again. It's a long journey, and I know it can be super hard. I lived that life and I fought with myself for way too long. But that all was for a purpose, and that purpose is to pull you out of your struggle and into the light... your light. I went through my hell so that I can bring you out of yours. And for that, I will be forever grateful. It's time for you to end the battle with your body and with your food. It's time for you Own Your Journey, and that's exactly what I'm going to help you do.
If you want to know my credentials, I am an NASM certified Personal Trainer, a Precision Nutrition Level 2 Coach, and a Health and Wellness Expert with two Masters degrees in Exercise Science and Health Promotion (Fitness and Wellness and Wellness Coaching, if you're curious). But the only credential that really matters is that I have been where you are, and I have designed my coaching around the steps that I took to reclaim my health and my life. I can help you do the exact same thing. With my coaching, you'll transform your body and shift your mindset from “I can’t” to “you can’t stop me." And let me tell you... it feels so freaking good!